Four days into not smoking, I started getting really freaky about cleaning. I drove people insane at work and then came home and cleaned out the fridge and under the kitchen sink. I'm also getting a little neurotic and moody. I was telling my good friend Laura about the effects the patch or the repercusions of the withdrawl was having on my personality. Now Laura worked with me before I started smoking (so her insight in invaluable) and she told me that it wasn't the nicotine, that's just what I'm like. So it turns out that the frightening truth (after this whole nicotine addiction rollercoaster ride) that possible, I don't actually like my personality : (
I am trying to cut myself some slack though, cause I've been under a great amount of stress. Most things are going well, but there's a lot going on. Also I spent Friday night listening to my drunken asshole roommate throw tantrums and scream at his girlfriend, and then was woken up by it again this morning. I'm taking Jon's good advice and uping the iron and B vitamin content in my diet so that might help. In any case, I'm only pissing off people I don't like and my friends still seem to enjoy my company. So the fuck the rest of 'em, right?
I am feeling more energetic, my lungs still hurt but my scary cough is gone, and my sinuses are MUCH clearer. Yay! Wish me luck this week when I start incorporating excersise back into my life.
When I was on vacation, I noticed some poker spam on my website which I, of course, immediately erased. The other day, I erased about 50, two days ago 114, and today 161. I'm beginning to think that erasing them is not the thing to do :( but my ocd won't let me leave it! Suggestions?
The rest of my day has been quite productive though and I'm even back on the patch!
All the pictures are up that I plan to put there so check them out cause it aint getting any better.
On an odd note, after Virginia audited me and had me caugh up $270, they just reassessed my return and sent me a check for $240. Too bad they can't reinburse me for the heartburn.
So I'm home and it actually feels better than I thought it would! I've started putting up some photos from Seattle but it's taking a while since, thanks to Micah's ginormous pupils, I have to retouch all the pictures she's in. Stay tuned!